My dad planned the Camino. đ I invited myself.
I thought it would bring us closer. I thought we’d walk together, talk, figure each other out over 900km. That’s not really what happened. By the end, we barely walked together – saw each other in the morning, met up at night.
Some days, I was frustrated by that. I wanted more.
One day I overheard him talking to a stranger. When he mentioned he was widowed, his voice broke a little. đ And something shifted in me – quietly, without making a big deal of it.
This was his journey. Not mine.
Though I didn’t know it then, I was grieving too. Mine just took longer to surface.
He needed that walk in a way I couldn’t fully understand. And there I was, wanting us time, making it about something it was never meant to be.
I wasn’t always easy to walk with either. But I started seeing him differently – not just as my dad, but as a person carrying something heavy.
One of the things that stayed with me most – little notes he left along the trail. Small things. Just enough to say I’m thinking of you.
A man deep in his own grief, still making sure I knew he was there.
We started that walk 12 years ago almost to the day. And it’s still one of the most important things we share – not because it was perfect, but because it was real. His, and mine, and somehow still ours. đ„°
J’t’aime pap xox đ
Wow, quelle belle histoire, Janine. Merci de l’avoir partagĂ©e. « This was his journey. Not mine. » et « A man deep in his own grief, still making sure I knew he was there. » đ J’aime beaucoup lire ton blog.
« I took a year off to paint » m’a beaucoup fait rĂ©flĂ©chir aussi. Je m’intĂ©resse Ă beaucoup de choses, notamment la photographie et la musique. Ăa veut dire qu’au lieu d’ĂȘtre trĂšs bon Ă une chose, je suis un peu bon Ă beaucoup de choses. Pendant longtemps, je me suis demandĂ© si j’Ă©tais assez bon. Si j’en faisais assez. Si je le faisais de la bonne façon. Et surtout, si ça mĂ©ritait d’ĂȘtre partagĂ©. Maintenant, j’y pense moins.
Ah, pis ta sĂ©rie « How to beat the algorithm » sur Insta… trop bon. đ
Bonne chance avec tes projets futurs. Je continue de suivre oĂč ça va t’apporter.
Nic
Awwe merci pour ce beau message! DĂ©fois jâme dis⊠yâa ti mĂȘme des gens qui lisent mon blog? đ€·đŒââïž
Continue Ă faire la faire les choses que tâes bon⊠je pense quâon doit juste faire les choses pour notre bien ĂȘtre- câest le plus important.
Algorithm⊠noted. Maybe I should do another one đ€ haha